chapter unknown: where kandido stonned reflects on the thangka paitings Wheel of Life

kandido hang the thangka in front of his bed. the room is dark. like everyday at night: no electicity in nepal. with a candle in the hands he started to explore the painting. slowly slowly like unveils a beautiful girl!
kandido ligthed a joint, and started to inhale deeply the holy smoke.... that's nepal style!
with the hands follows the external circle: te wheel of life... actually the real name is the circle of deluded life. yeah, because life lived like that is like an animal life... what makes a man different from an animal? just the self-consciousness...??? but, from what you can see there is no difference between animals and men... imprisoned by instincts, men, most of the time, lives without choosing. no freedom! produci consuma crepa. sbattiti, fatti, crepa! CCCP were singing!
kandido find men beautiful when they do stupid tings.. with no real utility. beautiuful, magical stupid things... empty... completely empty because they have no other reason that the beauty... no utility! like a sand mandala, drawn to be destroyed... like a butterfly that the day after is dead!
even in love. kandido will like to free love from the reproduction instinct, from the animal side... making love without coming! (that's what tantric practicers or taoists teaches!)
and here it is Guayin... on the left corner of the paintings... the goddess of Pure Love. she's out of the circle of life. with her, outside of the circle, there are two heavenly dancers and Shakyamuni Buddha pointing at her. Love, Wisdom and the trance of music and dance... free men from the wheel of life.... on the rest Yama, the scary lord of death reigns. his eyes are like two blood tunnels and his mouth is eating life... the deluded life... uhhhh!!!! but what is more scary? yama or a life lived in circle with no freedom???

the candle turns off... time for bed... and dreams

kandido dreamed of fiery scary goddess: Palden Lhamo... she was riding horse on a sea of blood... and drinking menstrual blood from a skull... A garland of freshly severed heads hangs around her body, snakes hold up her orange-streaked tiger-skin skirt, and five skulls topped with flaming jewels form her crown. be scared man!!! no pity if you don't wake up to the real life!!! you will end up like these men! she is howling

kandido with his smiling "little tibetan dead bro". he's smiling because he had an happy life! and the wheel of life on his back


even the sleeping pillows have the tibetan protector (skulls) printed on it:
safe dreams!!!